I have really lost it...

... I have really lost the connection to the afternoon which I never thought could be possible
I am working with paper, a screen and a copy machine
I am dreaming with a silk that has yet to be cultivated
I am walking with shoes that match the color of my coat
I am looking for duties to be fulfilled
I am considered to be shy and emotional at the same time
I am bending towards my gut
I am waking up with a red sky and blue skin
I am eating with avidity after hours of turning pages
I am smiling with question marks
I am hugging eight hours, a tired man and a new forgetfulness
I am watching myself in the train's window and I realize:

I have really lost it...